December 20, 2007
Look at me. I thoug hI was the strong girl, the one who flicked her hair as she strutted past the bitches and the haters, fag in one hand, coffee in the other, but here I am sitting reading a message I sent to someone about lust and envy and hate thinking oh what has gotten into you lately jessica? I could say that I haven't really been my old confident self, I've been acting really self conscious and shy. Maybe you haven't noticed,but I know I have, and I know my family and close, close friends have. I think I'm not used to being messed around. I am usually so sure of what I want from life and these past few months since I've stated college have thrown me so hard I feel like I've been kicked half the length of a bloody football field.
Ho hum. Im just going to go and watch wolf's rain to cheer me up. I don't know what's going on with me.
hmm see, this is a proper blog from the very depths of my brain, not nice is it?
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